Spinning Round and Around
05 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
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Almost one year being a college student and it’s unbelievable to know that it is harder than I’d ever thought of. Even though it’s just the first year of my college and I haven’t studied anything about the program I’ll be studying more intensely, I feel that it’s much harder than the high school. How come?! Well, I didn’t blame anyone who can survive really easily study in their first year and got 4, 00 or A for the index (Indeks Prestasi) in the end of the year. I didn’t say that I got better marks in HS, but it’s like more effort I have to put on to survive. I’m not the best student of all the classes, not even the one who always taught my friends for the calculus, physics or chemistry exam. My position is in the middle, I think.
The first time I sat on the chair in the classroom of 3 floor buildings, I saw new people, new subject: CALCULUS. I love mathematics so much, I even had thought of study math for the whole of my life, haha, just kidding. Even though, it’s much harder but I still like it, well no problem. What make me really surprising is PHYSICS and CHEMISTRY. I always got, well, below what I had expected. But, now I had more thinking about it, that I don’t know anything. I love answering those questions paper when I can do them all, but if I can’t do it, I tend to stopped and even hopeless. Sometimes, when I do good on the paper, my friends would asked me to teach them, I would loved to, but there’s a time I don’t understand anything, and they would say that I’m such a greed person who doesn’t want to share my knowledge. That always make burden in my head, but whatever.
My first semester wasn’t too bad, having new good friends and good marks (for me it’s quite good). I sometimes felt that I could make friends easily (hahaha), from the facts that on the second semester of my college study; I play with new friends of the other classes and even hanging out with them. Of course, there are some efforts to do that, like making jokes around like stupid, but I like doing thatJ. So, having new friends means having more time to play, hanging out and watching movies, and lessens my study time. I’m quite stress and freaking out when I got “E” for my first middle term exam of physics paper. But later on I realize that it wasn’t a big deal at all, I had new friends, and they are the place where I share my burdens and stories. For example, when I finished my A++ level (I’m not joking) physics paper with my stressful face; my friends are waiting in front of the door with the same expression asked me to go for karaoke or watching movies, release all the burdens.
Spinning round and around, yeah, that is how I am when I study for this 1 year. I could describe my self as; deadline worker, disorder and hedonic person, really bad, huh?! Beside that, I had good side; hard worker (deadline 
), friendly, and so on (people could judge better than me). I could be the most stressful and hopeless person, but I think I was the happiest person in my first year. That was last year, I still have to face those awaiting years of more stressful and happier years in my life. And like people always saying, “Life is like wheel, sometimes you are at the top, sometimes you are at the below”. But I still believe in, “Berakit-rakit kita ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian”. I love my life. Thank you for reading and keep in touch with my next stories and sharings.
Oka Kartikasari
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